No worries. She’s in the house and now waiting for you.” The guy grinned and took Wonwoo. “We’ll be going.” He proceeded. Love is complicated, Junhui. It conquers all, so it could also break something significant without a warning.” Wonwoo spoke, eyeing the big monitor again before them. And at that moment, Chan smiled painfully. It came from Wonwoo. He loves Junhui but he is afraid to lose everything that they have. Chan was hurt but overall, he is proud that at last, Wonwoo admitted it even though indirectly. You’re so loud.” Wonwoo spoke annoyingly while drying his hair with a small towel. He turned away from Junhui and went in front of his mirror. He was just walking and looking for a vacant table where he could be the first person to sit there when an unfamiliar voice called his name. “Junhui Wen!” He turned his head to the direction where he heard the voice and saw a familiar face that he knew, well-known in the whole university, yet he is not totally sure because of the mask he is wearing. “Here!” The guy gestured to him to sit beside them so he wasted no time and walked towards them. He smiled when he saw clearly who the guy was.

Jihoon? Jihoon Lee?” He asked, testing if he mentioned the right name. He sat beside them and saw another guy. It’s Seungcheol Choi. Junhui closed his eyes again and spoke. “I love you just like how Chan loves you. Now that I tell you, did you already understand it? No, right? Because you didn’t feel the same way.” Hey, come with us. This is the only time that we can bond. Plus, we have Chan. He wants to be your friend.” Wonwoo responded. And that hit Junhui so much. Maybe we are just meant to stay as best friends and not lovers. He thought to himself.

They finished their food in time and went directly to the sink to wash the utensils owned by his best friend when Junhui played a song without a warning. A beautiful voice of a girl filled the whole living area of Wonwoo’s house. And it was a tiring day for Junhui even though he just accompanied Wonwoo in the clinic without even waiting for him for so long, he even ate with Chan but it feels like he's carrying the whole world on his shoulder. It's true that heavy feelings can cause a burden to someone.

In one year, Wonwoo managed to juggle his studies and three jobs in a week. He did his best and disciplined himself to earn enough money and it was a success in the beginning. He ran out of time because of work, went home late and ate less to save more money, that’s why Junhui became a regular cook for Wonwoo to eat enough food. He memorized his best friend’s schedule and waited for him until late night just to make sure that Wonwoo would eat the food he prepared or his mother’s. And just like what Junhui remembered, Wonwoo hates eating alone so he will not eat his dinner unless he is with Wonwoo. He even thought about his parents’ birthday because maybe Wonwoo will give them gifts but again, it’s not. Junhui didn’t bother to respond to his stubborn best friend and just finished the song that Jisoo, his classmate, recommended for their performance next week. It was a great song, Junhui thought and he really is into this kind of stuff and hates it when Wonwoo always teases him with it.

Wonwoo didn’t answer verbally, he did it by bursting out in tears. He buried his face in Junhui's chest and just savored the moment while Junhui was comforting him. It’s heaven for Wonwoo一a safe haven, place of solace, spot of certainty and it feels right for him. Being with his best friend since they’re in elementary school is so calming aside from his mother’s assurance. Are you saying that mine is not good?” He asks his best friend who is busy slurping the soup made by his mother. Oh, yes. It was his mother’s. You don't, Wonwoo. You don't genuinely love me. You just love me because you want to escape from the reality that it is Junhui.” Chan closed his eyes out of pain. “You love Junhui and it shows in your smile whenever you're talking about him. It was genuine, it was true and saying that you're afraid to lose him. And he's feeling the same, Wonwoo.”

And why? We’re just going to your doctor. Do you need to wear formal clothes?” Junhui crossed his arms, raising his right eyebrow. Junhui graduated in indenial stage because now, he can confirm that he’s sure about his feelings for Wonwoo.They entered the same high school, of course they will and this time, Junhui took the responsibility of taking care of Wonwoo emotionally and for other aspects if he needs to. He doesn’t know how Wonwoo feels losing his parents but he knows it’s extremely hard. He will take care of his best friend just like how Wonwoo took care of him before. He immediately turned his head to him, anticipating something. And even if Junhui just mentioned his name, he couldn't help but to feel the pain he has in his heart and it is also visible from Junhui’s voice. The hall was filled with sounds that are not Wonwoo’s thing so maybe the reason why he didn’t come is because of the loud noise, that Junhui thought. Junhui looked at him and he remembered how he loves Wonwoo so much, how he started admiring his best friend more than anything, their shared moments and loud laughs, their petty fights, both being stubborn to their parents; all of it flashed in his memory rapidly and it just made him more eager to keep Wonwoo. But there’s something inside of him that he needs to say how he felt towards him. It will be a big gamble but it will end their suffering. Probably, thirty minutes to one hour.” And finally Junhui managed to speak but didn’t bother to look at Chan.

So don’t go away, okay? I don’t need anyone to be my best friend other than you. Just stay with me. Okay?” Wonwoo said to him. He just nods because he’s still overwhelmed with the unfamiliar feeling he is having right now. And even if Junhui can’t reply accurately to what Wonwoo had said, he’s sure that he will stay with Wonwoo whatever it takes. He can’t stand if he will leave the one who was there when he needed someone. As per Wonwoo, he slightly performed bad at school and at work because of everything that happenedㅡit bombards him. At the same time, he often had a headache due to stress and continued blurring of his eyes. But thankfully, he will take his graduation on time and will still finish college with latin honors. There’s something special today.” His best friend answered, letting him get whatever clothes he can get from the closet.He also became more conscious when they’re sleeping together. They've been doing this for almost 5 years now and even him, has no idea why he became sentient and he hates it because it limits him to enjoy Wonwoo’s company. Whenever the younger one is hugging him, his heart beats faster. They ate together and of course it’s not normal for them if they eat peacefully. Even Wonwoo still has a fever, he gets better and is capable again to tease Junhui. After eating, Junhui helped Wonwoo in taking his medicine. Wonwoo looks at him expressionless. “I don’t want to. You, being my best friend, is enough for me. I don’t want to add more burdens to my life.” Oh, Junhui wasn’t aware that Wonwoo was already talking about their essay they did earlier in school. He grinned. “Nothing. I just remembered something. So what happened in your essay?” He inquires.